Bit by Bit ...

…things are returning to normal and what feels like a different me is re-integrating into my same life.

I still feel tired sometimes and my body is a bit out of whack from a full first few weeks of September, but I trust it will adjust. I’m slowly but surely coming down from last week’s high, and have been reading many blog posts and emails from other Squam attendees going through similar feelings. It’s comforting to know that I am not alone.

I’ve been sleeping, giving my body some much needed rest. I’ve been catching up at home, trying to create a semblance of order and cleanliness to soothe my senses. I’ve been enjoying time with D. and Cassie.

I’ve been playing with paints, forcing myself to leave perfection aside and gracefully accept that I am a beginner. I’ve been communicating with some of the women I met at Squam, nurturing those creative, supportive ties as best as I can. I’ve been thinking of possible ways I could build a more balanced life that includes art, exercise, meaningful work, connection with a Higher Power, money to pay the bills – and maybe even a bit more, and a happy healthy circle of family and friends.

Squam introduced me to a world that buoys and fulfills me, a world that feels true to who I am; I want to integrate that world into my current one. I'm not sure how yet, but I trust that it will unfold - one day at a time.