Harder Than I Thought
Going back to work is harder than I thought it would be. For the past week I've been tired, moody and pestered by aches & pains.
Some parts are fun: lunch hour walks with friends, setting up a new office, and the upcoming paycheque on Friday (ok that one is a LOT of fun!). Others are trickier: lack of sleep, figuring out a new system to manage "to do's" between home & work, and reminding myself that I am not my job when I witness negativity and cynicism in the workplace.
There's still a part of me that wants my job and its environment to align with my values and interests. I'm not sure where I am is where it's going to happen, though it might be a stepping stone.
After a year without a salary, I'll admit that the money and benefits are very attractive to me. So just for today, I'll make sure my time is well spent by making that money and those benefits work for me. And just for today, I'll enjoy the friends, the walks and the chance to start anew.
Some parts are fun: lunch hour walks with friends, setting up a new office, and the upcoming paycheque on Friday (ok that one is a LOT of fun!). Others are trickier: lack of sleep, figuring out a new system to manage "to do's" between home & work, and reminding myself that I am not my job when I witness negativity and cynicism in the workplace.
There's still a part of me that wants my job and its environment to align with my values and interests. I'm not sure where I am is where it's going to happen, though it might be a stepping stone.
After a year without a salary, I'll admit that the money and benefits are very attractive to me. So just for today, I'll make sure my time is well spent by making that money and those benefits work for me. And just for today, I'll enjoy the friends, the walks and the chance to start anew.
Labels: Sabbatical, Work
posted by Steph at 7:23 p.m.
3 Comments:
Just for today... sounds like a good plan. Remember, they say it takes 21 days for a new habit to take hold. After being on sabbatical for 11 months, going to the office 5 days/week is like starting a new habit. Easy does it, dear one! And hold on to your openness to discovering what lessons lie therein.
PAX,
It gets easier... The walks get longer and lunch then becomes half of your day... ;-)
It's early yet, you'll get back into the groove of things in time...
"The truth is that our finest moments are most likely to occur when we are feeling deeply uncomfortable, unhappy, or unfulfilled. For it is only in such moments, propelled by our discomfort, that we are likely to step out of our ruts and start searching for different ways or truer answers."
Be well!
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