On Joy and Healing ...
It seems the opening of the heart to joy may also re-open the heart to healing.
Last night I had dinner with a dear friend; as I shared about unexpected emotions re-surfacing from old wounds, she gently pointed out that the opening of the heart that occurred at Squam may have left me raw.
It makes sense.
The stirrings of the soul experienced at Squam re-awakened a part of me I'd left dormant. After a few intense years of personal growth and healing from a separation that dismantled my world as I knew it, I wanted a break; a year - or maybe even two - of coasting if you wish.
Squam shook up the complacency that consequently took hold and re-awakened a connection to my Center that I cannot ignore. It re-acquainted me to a place of joy, knowing and Love and in doing so, touched a place of truth and honesty that is bringing forward a deeper layer of healing I did not expect.
So be it; this too shall pass.
I am no longer the same person I was three years ago. I have a loving partner, a supportive circle of friends and family, and a sense of self. I have awareness and tools to help me recognize and navigate the downward spirals. And best of all, I have a newly found place of joy, knowing and Love to turn to. I don't think a girl could ask for much more.
Last night I had dinner with a dear friend; as I shared about unexpected emotions re-surfacing from old wounds, she gently pointed out that the opening of the heart that occurred at Squam may have left me raw.
It makes sense.
The stirrings of the soul experienced at Squam re-awakened a part of me I'd left dormant. After a few intense years of personal growth and healing from a separation that dismantled my world as I knew it, I wanted a break; a year - or maybe even two - of coasting if you wish.
Squam shook up the complacency that consequently took hold and re-awakened a connection to my Center that I cannot ignore. It re-acquainted me to a place of joy, knowing and Love and in doing so, touched a place of truth and honesty that is bringing forward a deeper layer of healing I did not expect.
So be it; this too shall pass.
I am no longer the same person I was three years ago. I have a loving partner, a supportive circle of friends and family, and a sense of self. I have awareness and tools to help me recognize and navigate the downward spirals. And best of all, I have a newly found place of joy, knowing and Love to turn to. I don't think a girl could ask for much more.
Labels: Life's big questions, Squam
posted by Steph at 3:45 p.m.
3 Comments:
I am SO one of your supportive circle of friends, and so glad Squam opened you in this new way. You better send me that snail mail PRONTO. Your package lies waiting . . .
xox
amy
oh dearie, i think this is the way it just goes. there is opposition in all things. when you open yourself to beauty, it allows the ugly to bare itself more fully.
just be patient with yourself and trust that this *new* self knows what she's doing. because she does... YOU do. ;-D
this is so beautifully and bravely written, steph.
sending a reminder...just in case one day you need it...to be gentle, generous and patient with yourself during this period of re-awakening and re-connecting.
sending love and hugs.
xo
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